Twenty Five years

This year I turned 25 years old. It was hard to believe that I have been alive 25 years, that I was married, and a mother of two. Life has changed so much how times flies while you live it. I had a great childhood, especially compared to the children now a days. My favorite memory was crawling in my Meme's bed, cuddling, and watching movies with her when my Papa Doc was gone. As time went by my favorite memory became the free day in 8th grade. Being outside on the baseball field eating and having a wonderful day with all of my friends. Then came high school. Ninth grade: I met new friends, I got my first boyfriend, and had my first kiss. Tenth grade: danced on the dance team turned 16 and loved every part of my life. Eleventh grade: went back to "normal life" just having fun with friends and dating my first true love. Twelfth grade: Getting close to those friends I was close with in elementary school and making some of the best memories of my life. Going to the mall on Friday and Saturday nights. Race track in the spring and swimming in the summer. Then college years started, began at USCL and ended at USC. Those four and half years were amazing and heartbreaking at the same time. I lost my best friend to a terrible car accident then at the end of my college years I met my future husband. Now I am a teacher, mother, and wife. Twenty five years all summed up.

Halley (RIP)-Julie- and Me

Daddy, Zoe, and Gabriel

Zoe 

Gabriel

HELP ME!

So our wonderfully planned Valentines Day was crushed! Instead of a wonderful evening at The Melting Pot, and a quite night without either of my children, I got my little one at home, my son at my in-laws, and a husband in the hospital.

My husband came into the bathroom while I was getting ready for school and was in serious pain. So he called his mother and she took him out to the VA. He arrived at the VA at 7:30, where they had determined by 10 that his IBS was acting up. Around 11 he went for CT scan and then an ultra sound was done at about 2:30. That is when they determined it was actually his Gallbladder. He ended up waiting for a room till 9:30 last night. He had not ate all day, actually he had not ate since around 4 pm on Sunday. He went in today (Tuesday the 15th) and had his lovely Gallbladder taken out.

Now I love my husband but as most of us know, men are like babies when they get sick. I already have a 4 year old and 5 month old, I do not need another child on my hands! Especially one that can talk, walk, and complain every 5 seconds. I really need more than one me in this house.

I wish

I WISH

1. My son and daughter would stop growing and let me enjoy them, the way they are.
2. I had my best friend back on Earth. (Not that C isn't great I just really miss Halley)
3. I could be a stay at home mom.
4. The weekend wasn't only two nights and two days.
5. I could get a full nights sleep.
6. I was not a single parent Wednesday night-Monday morning.
7. All things were secure already for next year.
8. I had friends where I taught or at least where I live.
9. The world was a perfect place.
10. Everyone could get along.
11. Stay at the school where I teach.
12. Lived closer to my family.
13. Got a small two hour break on the weekends, just every once in a while.
14. Lastly that I didn't always feel grr or blah!

Wow...

This past Friday I celebrated my son turning 4 years old. Its hard to believe that he was four months old when he came into my life and now he is already 4. Where has the time gone?

Gabriel at 8 months old

Gabriel at 4 years old.

Hopefully this little man will stay little forever and always!



So much going on...so little time

My last few days have flown by...

Tuesday: My Papa Doc went to work out then ended up at the hospital. They found a blood clot in his leg above his knee. They broke up the blood clot on Tuesday then on Wednesday found out why his flood clot formed. Just so happens that the stint that was put in back in fall 2008 fractured. They replaced the stint and he was able to come home on Friday. He is in a lot of pain, and if you know my Papa Doc he never takes meds; well now he has to because the pain is so bad. I pray that he heals quickly, and stops hurting.

This week with Zoe I have tried my best to find a way to help her sleep through the night. I have yet to find a solution to this problem; however, she is slowly sleeping more. Monday she woke up at least four times. Tuesday she woke up 3 times and Wednesday she woke up 3 times. On Thursday she woke up twice and Friday she woke up once. So hopefully this is the beginning of something beautiful!

My daughter has also began to do this...

Time Flies

This weekend has been very tiring...I am glad it is over but I also wish for more time with my little ones. I have a crazy feeling that this week will not be a smooth week either...YUCK!
What also stinks is I do not see a restful weekend ahead of me for at least a month. So I guess since I have completed my lovely unit for school I might as well begin writing it up. :(

While driving today I was listening to my Zune and the song "It Won't Be Like This For Long" came on. I miss the night I came home with my sweet little one 5 looong months ago. I miss so much being a working mom, it really does suck in more than one way. My darling daughter is growing so fast I wish all these little moments would last longer. Right now I mind the waking in the middle of the night, but in the future I am going to miss every minute and I know that. Just to look back on her first picture till now is heart breaking some days. I know it will get easier but I am not sure if I want it to. :(

The day darling daughter was born

My darling daughter at 5 months

Veggies!

I have been doing some experimenting with little Zoe and oh boy are we having fun! Monday I tried greenbeans this was the outcome...

I laughed the whole time I fed her. Although last night (Tuesday) went much better...

Okay, really now?

Well here is an update to what has been going on...Yea I know cry me a river!

Sunday: My car is fixed, yahoo! Except now my husbands car is messed thanks to a wonderful oil mess. Luck us!

Monday: Sadly, my husbands grandfather passed away.

Tuesday: An altogether bad day.

Wednesday: I love my job, I really do. Although I would not mind being home with my children. Take and pick up my son from preschool. Watch my daughter begin to walk and do all the amazing things that come with little ones. Why worry about these things?? I am not in control and Lord Almighty is in control. God has a plan I am just here for the ride. :) Now if I can keep this state of mind I will be better off.

Day Three

For some reason my luck is still horrible. Today started off wonderful. Heath even gave me my new cell phone and Nook, that were supposed to my birthday that is not until February. My parents came and brought my cousins, Kylie and William. We took the kids to Monkey Joes where they were having a ball. Unfortunaly, I then got the call that my husbands grandfather is in his final moments. I am heart broken for my husband; however, I am stuck. In the last nine years I have seen several people pass away. Most of them were taken in an instant so there was so much shock that I had no emotion. My husbands grandfather has been in health for a while now, that I am not sure if I have emotions. How can I be there for my husband and his parents in this difficult time. Most of all I am afraid of how he will deal with this loss. And on top of all of it, his grandmother has stated she has given up as well and is ready to go home. Only Lord knows the future but may he be with our family as we deal with the loss of my husbands grandparents.

Day Two

Okay so today was not as good as I had hoped. I guess I have had so many "good" days and now it's my turn for the bad days. So my precious daughter decided 3:30 a.m. was a great wake up time. I tried from 3:30-4:40 to get her back to sleep from giving her paci, putting her in my bed, and letting her scream in her room and NOTHING worked! Finally at 4:40 little miss got a bottle and went to sleep, THANKGOODNESS!

After that I was cranky and annoyed beyond belief but, my car decided to be a pain in my booty. It is over heating and I have no idea why. Just my luck, especially with my action packed weekend! Then on top of things I feel like poopy and I am running a fever. I don't have time to be sick so this little fever needs to go away.

I now sit with Miss Zoe while she screams at her toys then plays and then screams some more, and my other child you ask? Well he is being an angel and watching a Care Bear Movie. At least one of my two is taking it easy. Just seems these roles have changed this week, because as most know he is usually my complicated child not her! May tomorrow be a better day and all run smoothly!

Day 1 of a missing husband/Not a good day

My night/day in a nutshell...
Last night Miss Zoe was having a difficult time going to sleep. When I say difficult she would not chill out and go off to dream land. Then she woke up at 1am, 2am, 3am, and 4am. Except the 4am wake up was more like 4-4:30 wake up. I finally had to leave her fussing. As I finished getting ready and began getting Mr. Gabriel ready she woke up. Then they both needed to get dressed and breakfast. Got that done finally at 6:40. As I am walking out the door I remembered my bag and flash drive. All is well until I get to school...
I put my awesome flash drive in the computer and NOTHING, try it on the laptop and NOTHING, then I ask for help...still NOTHING! Needless to say all of my lesson plans I had neatly compiled, my grade sheets, and my Smart Board lessons ALL GONE! So what did I spend my day doing today you may ask...REDOING a bunch of school stuff...FUN!

After my WONDERFUL day at school I picked up Gabriel, who lately has found himself going back to having great days at daycare again! YES!

ZOE on the other hand...grumpy, snotty nose, screaming at the top of her lungs type of day. Who after 6 oz still was not happy. She is now sleeping in her lovely swing after screaming for an additional 20 minutes. :)

May tonight be a peaceful night to all!

Side note: The "missing husband" is because he is now working in Greenville. So Wednesday thru Sunday I am a do it all type of mother.

Snow days

During the snow days I have taken advantage of being able to finally set-up a blog. I have many friends who blog and I have enjoyed reading their thoughts. Now I am going to share mine.

This snow I have enjoyed watching my two little ones and their father have fun in the snow.

Zoe and I

Zoe waiting on Daddy and Gabriel to finish in the snow...

Gabriel pulling his sled

Heath on the sled.

Although we had fun, I am happy to see the sun soon.!